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Hi everyone!
I have been at the CPA journey for about 2 years, and right now I work full-time at a tax consulting firm. I also struggle with serious depression. It is something that has made the smallest things (like showering or getting groceries) harder, and it makes the big things (like the CPA) seem impossible. I am really working on tackling the depression, and I have made a lot of strides in finding the right medication and making positive changes to my lifestyle. I am also getting promoted to a senior, which I’m really excited about and proud of, especially given what I’ve been going through.
One area that I struggle with and that aggravates my depression is my progress with the CPA exam. I have taken at least 5 tests (Audit, REG and BEC) and only passed BEC so far. BEC will expire in April 2014. I have postponed quite a few tests, and I rarely get through the test materials. I find myself getting stuck on certain sections in my study materials, and not being able to just move on. To the outside world, my CPA exam work ethic probably looks like laziness, but no one can see the internal struggle that I deal with on a daily basis. I have to muster up all of the energy I can to get through the workday, and when it comes time to study at home, I fail miserably because I am usually so worn down (emotionally).
This week I am scheduled to take FAR, and I have only gotten through around 30-40% of the material. I can’t postpone the test anymore, as the NTS will expire in December. I have decided to take it, even though I am grossly unprepared. I am going in with the mindset that I should just try my best and make a mental note of what types of questions are on there so I can be more comfortable the next time I take it (assuming I will have to). I know taking the test is the right thing to do, but the feeling of dissatisfaction with myself for not working at my full potential is so difficult and heavy.
Has anyone out there gone through something similar? Even if you haven’t gone through this, does anyone have any suggestions or thoughts? Any words of encouragement would be so helpful. Thank you and good luck everyone!
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