[Tralala]

Hi Community,

Recently had a busy season with one of the Big 4 and the experience was miserable. I was on a complex project with a newly minted senior who was also new to the field of work we were doing. I was micro-managed, given deadlines for things that were unreasonable, and scolded when I made mistakes. It’s really just not an experience I would like to experience again. It’s not all in my head as others commented on my experience and agreed.

My drive to excel in this field has really dampened and I feel burnt out and lethargic. I developed intense anxiety at work and get panic attack from time to time just thinking about work. The good thing is I did get the highest review possible on the engagement. My other engagements were fine and I had a good experience.

I am just wondering if this mentality is normal? Do things generally improve? I am feeling really discouraged and don’t know if I can do it again physically and mentally speaking. My last 3.5 months felt like a very long day of stress and hell. I am trying to remain positive through it at all but have a really negative view of work now and am overall hating the experience.