Rebecca is a weekly Club 75 Blogger as she documents her journey through the CPA Exam. She has been a member of Another71.com's Club 75 since June 2010.
Some of you may have noticed while others may have not, but I have been MIA for the past two weeks. It has been a rough two weeks for me to say the least.
The first week I was fighting a really bad cold. Then second week, well lets just say I was downright miserable and wanting to quit the CPA exam.
All of this negativity was not a good thing with my exam being next Tuesday. That being said on Monday I was set on moving my testing date to mid-February. I got to my office and pulled up the Prometric website and saw that there was seat availability on 2/18, perfect!
Well perfect quickly turned into a you have got to be kidding me?! I mixed up my NTS expiration dates for FAR and BEC. BECs expired on 4/1 and FAR on 2/1. Needless to say I will be sitting for FAR next Tuesday as I had those two dates backwards in my mind.
I have lucked out though in the sense that the principal I am working for next week is allowing me to take Monday off to study. God bless her! I have put in a lot of hours to FAR so not being able to move the exam isnt the end of the world. I just have been in a funk lately and thought it may help me regroup.
I know others have been to this point where you just want to flat out walk away from the exam. What made you keep at it? I look back and I feel as though all I ever do is fail and I dont know how I am ever going to accomplish this.
I put in the time and effort but I never seem to come out on top. I am a terrible test taker, always have been. I am a very bright woman but for some reason once that clock starts ticking everything I had stored in my brain starts to vanish.
I debated on maybe just walking away from the exam for a little while but what am I proving? Maybe I will keep plugging along till next January and if my REG expires then give up. I know, I know, I am not really the Debbie Downer blogger but lately that is how I feel. My confidence is fading and I need to get it back quickly for next week!
Hopefully this really is just a funk and I get over it soon because I am not liking this miserable me who is normally the happy go-lucky type. Best of luck to all of you testing this week!! I have quite the week cut out for me until next Tuesday so send some happy thoughts my way!
Until next time,
Rebecca, focus on your words "I'm a very bright woman" because you are indeed! You've got so much time and energy put into your studies that you've got to stick with it. I have this quote taped to my adding machine and thought it might help you too: "There is no failure except in no longer trying."-- Elbert Hubbard. You've got this!
Rebecca, Boy do I know how you feel. I too am unable to pass a section the first time out. Even though I put in more than the standard amount of study time I just don't seem to get that elusive 75 score so I can feel great about myself and my ablility to move forward with the CPA exam. I failed FAR in November with a mid-60's score and have floundered ever since to study sufficiently to really be ready to take the exam again. It took two tries to pass BEC and after the first failure I was ready to walk away from this entire process. I took a couple of months off and then decided to try it one more time to see if I could pass this section. I passed with an 80 on my second try. I wish that I could say that it fired me up sufficiently to move into FAR ready to concur the exam. Most of the time I just feel stupid and extremely frustrated about the entire process. I've actually realized lately that I'm so burned out about the process that I don't even want to do accounting any longer. Now that is truly being in a funk. It is worse when all of my former classmates post that they passed all their exams on their first try. Really? Are you kidding me? It's not like they were better students than I. My grades in school consisted of nearly straight A's in all my accounting classes. What am I doing wrong? I can't seem to place a finger on that. It helps to read bloggs of others that have struggled through this process. It helps to see my retaking of testbank questions improve. I do have a support group that meets every couple of weeks so we can "feel the pain" together through this process. Not sure what else to suggest. Best of luck to this week of studying and passing FAR next Tuesday! You're in my thoughts.
Oh Rebecca, Oh Rebecca, it must be in the air. I'm so ready to throw in the towel too!! We can't, we've come to far to give up now!!! We got this!!! We got this together!!! 2012 IS OUR YEAR!!!!
Thank you ladies for all of your kind words! Kim thank you so much for that quote! I print out good ones and put them on the wall of my cube and this was added today! Cheryl I hear ya! A lot of my college classmates and coworkers put up facebook statuses that they passed and it breaks my heart. Don't get me wrong I am very happy for them but at the same time I am crying on the inside! Jomarie not sure what I do without your encouraging words of wisdom all the time! I may not personally know you but I know that if I come on here and need to vent you are always there to pick me up when I am down. Funny how this website works and connects you to people! WE GOT THIS, WE GOT THIS, WE GOT THIS!!! :)
I just found this website while taking a break from studying. Stick with it Rebecca, you got this! I have FAR for the first time (hopefully last) coming up next Wednesday. I've taken BEC and REG before, but no luck so far so I'm hoping to come out strong with this. You and me - let's do this.
Rebecca, please do not quit! You will regret it and you will regret wasting time if you do quit and then go back for it later. I did that and now I wish I would have just stuck to it and finished this 7 years ago!! This exam is so frustrating and pushes all of us to our limits but you have passed two sections (?) and can and WILL complete this. It's just a rough patch right now but don't lose hope. You are a bright woman and failing this exam does not mean that you are not. Keep your head up and one day when you do finish it, you will appreciate it that much more because of how hard you worked for it. Finally, please remember what a beautiful life this is and that this is not the end of the world. From reading your blogs I have read you are married and sounds like you have family and friends take faith in that and dont let this exam shake what are the most important things in life. Make sure to do something for you after FAR, then dust yourself off and get ready for BEC! Good luck!!!
Thanks Mom2two that means a lot! I had two but I am unfortunately back to one thanks to the meanie BEC. I hit that rough patch but I think after talking with Jeff on the phone and reading everyone's positive comments to me I have picked myself this week. I am in for a long weekend of craming but I am more focused than ever right now! I wish you the best of luck as well!!!
Hang in there Rebecca! I hit those rough spots also and sometimes wonder how I can go on with this process. I passed my first part of the exam last year (AUD) and it gave me a much needed boost to keep going. Then the next week I got that beloved BEC score of 71. Down for a bit but not out! It was so wonderful getting that first passing score but then I thought, ohhhh nooooo! Pressure to pass the remainig three parts by 1/31/13. Yikes. I took BEC on 1/3 for the fourth time. I am just praying that I get a 75. I take REG again on 2/29. Then I HAVE to start tackling FAR. We candothis!!!
Karen we are on the same path! I will lose REG on 1/31/13. I failed BEC 5 times grrrr. Everytime in the 70s I just can't seem to get that 75! We can do this! Good luck :)
Rebecca, I am hoping you found your "north" in the last week. You are going to make this happen--BECAUSE you can . Believe it. 2012, Year of the Dragon--either way you look at it, it will be your year to finish this. I know you can do it. Kick some @ss on Tuesday!! nadia (yankee)