I am done with your games. Ive studied. Ive given up my life. My phone is perpetually on silent. My email accounts closed. Ive played your silly games three times now. Fourth time is the charm? Oh you better believe it.
Im sick of failing by only a few points. Im sick of being tired because of studying. Im sick of my muscles being stuck in the perpetual sitting-at-the-computer position. I am ready to feel the burn of a good run again. The burn of the sun, heck just seeing the sun again would really be lovely.
I dread my early morning alarm clock wake-up because I know REG Studying is the first thing on my to-do list each morning. I want to be able to answer that Monday morning question did you have a nice weekend? with a YES! for once.
I would really love to have a life again. I miss human interactions outside of work. I miss hanging out with people for fun. I want to be able to say yes to impromptu plans, or really just plans at all. I heard about these great things call friendships and romantic relationships thanks for taking those away from me.
I never want to climb into bed with my review notes or study books again. Oh, and Id like to be able to get this…read for fun again. Dont laugh, I heard it exists.
I promise to appreciate my CPA certification (if/once obtained) with all my heart. With my handfuls of failing scores, I know I truly will. Those letters will mean more to me than anyone else can know. I also promise to never brag or boast about that certification.
I made all the sacrifices from the start, did everything I was told to do to ensure I would pass. So why are we here again? Why the torture? Weeks from now (maybe months thanks to the new score release) Ill be torturing myself wondering about scores. Pacing back and forth, trying to calm my nerves. Having that internal struggle of should I look would I rather not know if I failed?
Oh the wonderful things to look forward to.
We are not friends.
Warm Regards (hey just trying to be polite),
PS: Ive never liked taxes yeah, I said it.